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Sunday, November 9, 2008

Love Life

So, I find it amazing how God places different stimuli in our lives at just the right time. He's that guy that knows just what to say and just when to say it. Of course, he would be quite literally out of this world. There are only two perfect men that have ever been in my life. On a non-fictional level, there's Jesus Christ. On a fictional level, there's Edward Cullen*.
Finding that perfect man- for right now there are only those two men in my love life...but i think that they are both quite amazing, so I shouldn't be complaining. The main reason for my dissatisfaction is because yet another extremely decent man has walked right out of my love life. I'm quite selfish to need three men to be content, (I mean really, who wouldn't settle for Jesus and Edward Cullen*?) but I still have this overwhelming sense of loneliness. I'm only eighteen, maybe I'm just melodramatic...but Cody (the decent man whom is no longer a participant in my love life) was twenty-two...people get married at eighteen. They most certainly get married at twenty-two...
But in the midst of all my self-pity and loneliness, I decided to do my weekly devotional. wow. There He goes again being Mr. Right. I've already found the love of my life. Whoever i find on this earth will always be second to Him...there's no way they can compare.
The devotional began with this verse: I love the Lord, for he heard my voice; He heard my cry for mercy. Because He turned His ear to me, I will call on Him as long as i live. Psalm 116:1-2 (NIV)
Sometimes I feel like my God is just as fictional as my Edward Cullen...but this is proof he Isn't. He is the real love of my life. He is real. He is listening to me and He loves me. He loves me.
What more can I ask for? Some flawed creature, some man, made of flesh?
No, He is enough. He is much more than enough. He fills my heart until it overflows. I cannot ask for more.




*Edward Cullen is the swoon-worthy vampire in Stephanie Meyer's Twilight Saga.

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